I was complaining a few weeks ago that most people seem to have things that they are especially good at, but that I'm just mediocre at an assortment of things.
Moriah retorted that actually, I'm pretty good at some things (but they don't help me determine what career path I'll take). I'm exceptionally good at subconsciously absorbing useless information (in a time where trivia is no longer appreciated) and being an over the top perfectionist about things that don't matter. I can remember names and wikipedia articles. I'm also an exceptional googler. My friends ask me to google things for them sometimes because I am a google whisperer. Can these traits be useful for something? (If you actually can think of something they're good for, for goodness sake, tell me because I'm yet to discover it).
I like writing and photography but I'm pretty average at both so I'm fine with dismissing them as hobbies and looking for another career in which I would starve slightly less.
I wish I was exceptionally good at something that was useful in an occupational level but I'm not even particularly passionate about anything. I feel like I have a bare outline of things that I would consider doing in the future. I'll roll with things, I guess, and see what happens. That's what I've done so far in life.
I feel like somewhere out there, there's a really obscure nook of a career where I will fit and be happy. However, I'm not keen on potentially twisted and confusing path to get to this unknown destination that may or may not exist. I should probably relax, get through high school and a few years of university, drink lots of coffee, read lots of books and meet lots of good people before I deal with this too much.
But all these family visits make me so stressed about this because relatives keep asking me about my future and I fail to have satisfying answers for them. My usual "Well, I'll go to university somewhere for something" isn't enough for them. I think I give them the impression of being much smarter than I actually am and so they've set high hopes for me but are gradually lowering them as I give them increasingly ambiguous answers.
Love,
-J-
Dude. I feel the same way.
ReplyDeleteWith your googling skills you can become a secret agent and find people, and things, and save stuff.
Haha, I volunteered at a 'spy camp' for kids last week, so I think I might pursue that since I've acquired some mad spy skills. But I need to acquire a grappling hook first.
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