Today was a good day of accomplishing things that I've been putting off forever. The walls of my room are slightly less bare than before with the addition of maps, my $3 flippy clock is fixed after I bothered my brother for a while and my ample collection of scarves is washed of that stuffed-in-a-closet-all-summer smell. Along with that, the most recent episode of Doctor Who is finally watched, along with another three episodes of Gilmore Girls (I have a problem) and I've acquired about six months worth of music suggestions in one sitting, as I need to get my pretentious barista music tastes up to scratch. I'm kind of overwhelmed by the 100+ new songs in my itunes because I don't know where to start listening. It's a good type of overwhelmed.
However, tomorrow I have to stop being an antisocial machine of minute accomplishments for a little while to have Thanksgiving dinner. I kind of dread every time I have to go see my relatives. Don't get me wrong, I love them, but whether it's true or not, I feel like they judge me a lot. In that house in the depths of the country, less than half of them graduated from high school. And there I am, an intellectual/artsy kid born and raised in the city. Basically, I am the polar opposite of them in most aspects.
I know that I'm going to show up tomorrow, stand around the awkward huddle of my cousins and their significant others and be asked questions about my life (because I never do anything interesting enough to make it into interfamilial gossip). At least now, unlike summer, I can say that I have a job. Then they can make subtle pokes at the fact that I'm (1) perpetually single and (2) going into liberal arts next year, lasting all of an awkward but inevitable 2-5 minutes. There are enough people in my family who manage to poke at my insecurities in a joking sort of way that makes me uncomfortable.
Well, hopefully I get lemon meringue pie and a few good laughs out of tomorrow.
^I think I'm going to start putting music down here^
Hearts,
-J-
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