There is freedom at the end of the tunnel.

After a marathon of homework since September, I am on the last little sprint. Then exams. Then freedom. Hallelujah.

Well, not complete freedom. I have a summer job, working at my church, planning and doing stuff with kids and youth. I'm really excited, like ridiculously excited. Doing stuff I love, with the little perk of a pay check.

I feel like I'm in a really weird place right now to essentially be a leader. We'll see how this works out.
Love,
-J-
City buses taken this year: 26

In which ignorant people are ignorant.

Today, I got really angry.

In Sunday school, we were watching a video called "Everything is spiritual" by Rob Bell. Gerald said that Christian, my church's former youth pastor, had showed him the video a few years ago.

One kid in my class made a comment somewhat like,"Well Christian obviously didn't learn anything from the video." 

Now, Christian left a year and a half ago because a mistake he made. He had to leave mostly because he was honest about his mistake. I respect him for that.

The statement, plus the superiority that he said it with really made me want to punch him in the face. It was made even worse when two girls agreed with him in a similar manner.

They should have said nothing about the subject. All three of them have done virtually nothing but disrupt the class for the entirety of this year. I was really, really pissed.

Dear idiots in my Sunday school class, 
Who are you to say stuff about Christian? I know he was a youth pastor, but that doesn't mean he was invincible to human nature. 

Have you ever made a mistake, or are you completely perfect and able to judge others?


You're condescending jackasses. I would be slightly less pissed if you weren't complete hypocrites along with that. I don't even know I put up with you. I know you don't care about anyone else, you just want to fit in with all the other jackasses. 

You're a ridiculous. I know you don't care about church, or anyone but yourself anyway. You really need someone to bring you back to reality.
Sincerly,
Pissed Julianne
PS- If I hear you ask one more time about the morality of homosexuality or about the existence of dinosaurs in relation to humans, I will personally drop kick you.

Uh, people. Good thing I'm a dinosaur.

Everybody around me for the last three days has been stressed or angry at something or other.

It's beginning to get to me.

I'm in a sort of mood where I want to walk around the neighbourhood idly for a few hours, just to get away from people. Maybe sit on a swing and ponder the mysteries of the universe.

Or, you know, find somewhere to zone out listening to The Beatles.
Love,
-J-

An explosion of thoughts. More or less.

I have reached the point in time where I am very ready to settle down to a summer of letting days slip by without anything to do except supporting a slushie addiction, watching seasons of TV and the occasional trip to the beach.

Unfortunately, there are 9 days left of school and then there's exam week.

I didn't understand third period today when a guy said to me,"Seriously, I can't do anything right now. I don't care that there are only two weeks left, I can't do it."

Now, after amazing weather this afternoon after a week of rain, I agree wholeheartedly.

People are walking around in a daze, surviving only on the fact that everyday is closer to summer.

On a different train of thought, I had a rather busy weekend. Moriah, Noah and I spent a while at Allan's house after school on Friday and they made me watch 'I Know What You Did Last Summer.' Even after they turned the lights on, I spent most of the time curled up in a ball covering my ears. I don't think they will ever let me live it down.

Friday evening and Saturday the four of us went to a Vineyard gathering at a church near Allan's house. Considering I'm from a traditional (tired) Baptist church, the Vineyard is pretty crazy and awesome to me. People aren't afraid to express themselves. Saturday afternoon, a pastor asked everybody who was under 25 to come up and be prayed for by past and present church leaders. We went up to a sort of prayer mosh pit at the front.

They didn't pray for us not to be corrupted by the world, as I know a lot of people would have done. They prayed for the potential of our generation. People I didn't even know. Two strangers told me that they sensed I had leadership, that I would guide lots of people and effect their lives. Somebody else told me something similar last weekend.

I don't really know what I think of this. It's just sort of a foreign concept with me, to have several strangers tell me a sort of prophesy.

I don't really think of myself as being a leader, so it's even stranger that several people mention something I didn't know I had. But I guess I will have to wait and find out what this brings.

Sorry if I freaked anyone out with this.
Love,
-J-
City buses: 24