In which I overthink metaphorical terms.

Sometimes, I feel if my life is becoming a comfortable little nook where nothing particularly crazy happens because no risks are taken.

But is it a comfortable little nook or a rut?

For the last few weeks, every time I'm about to do something a little out of my comfort zone, I automatically give up on it. It takes too much effort and I think I'm beginning have fear creeping up on me. I find this strange, because I don't remember any times in the past few years where I've been scared to get a little out of my comfort zone.

I don't want this to continue, but I don't know how to stop this creeping fear. Because of this fear, I'm beginning to fear that I'll be afraid to do things I really want to do with my life. Confusing, right? Slightly paradoxical? I fear I'll fear?

But with writing this down, I think I've begun coaxing myself out of the rut.

I want to live my life to the fullest, not limiting myself to a box, but making the most of the situations I find myself in. Life is too short to be in a rut.
Love,
-J-

Talking Pictures

A really awesome video. Just watch it.

 Apparently, I have a nervous laugh when I'm not sure if someone is joking or not. I wasn't aware of this until Moriah pointed it out yesterday. I never noticed it until after she mentioned it, where I immediately laughed the said laugh. I guess some of my friends know me better than I do.


I filled out an application form for a mission trip this summer. Since it's a youth group thing, which is handed in to people who know me, I had a bit of fun filling it out with a bit of help from Gerald and Corey:

Question:
What do you think you will bring to this trip experience?
-sarcasm
-puns
-awesomeness
-an odd sense of humor
-group moral

I took my learner's permit test today... I failed. My mom didn't believe me. I don't feel bad about it, though, because Allan didn't pass the test the first time he took it and he's a genius. When I took my test, I was sitting next to Reid, or "eyebrows" as I refer to him in my head. 

I still felt slightly annoyed at myself because my mom kept giving me her look of pity, which pisses me off. Somehow, this translated into me buying pink nail polish and walking to youth group, which took about an hour. I'm still not sure how I feel about the pink nail polish.

It seems to be my stress thing. If I want to distract myself from something stupid, I get make-up and walk long distances. It's sort of funny how my make-up usually looks better when I'm stressed about something. 

Tomorrow, worship team practice in the morning and musical in the afternoon. I'm kind of pumped, because I enjoy things that I'm not graded on. This is what my life is coming to.
Love,
-J-

In My Life- The Beatles

I never listened to this song before today, but it's just so catchy!

The Beatles were brilliant.

 

One of those days... OF AWESOME.

Today, my day was filled with little bits of WIN:

I woke up to the "Circle of Life" from The Lion King.

A picture of me (with my hand on the vandergraph generator, the thing that makes static so your hair stand up) was in the course selection slideshow for the physics department. A few slides away from a picture of Sheldon Cooper.

All my morning classes were 30 minutes long, due to the hour and a half assembly about course selection.

A kid in my French class presented a three minute speech (in French) about The Krusty Krab. Yeah, the one off Sponge Bob. 

One of the people I hung out with at lunch was wearing a sombrero and random people thought it was awesome.

And that is my day of WIN.
Love,
-J-

Palm trees are my friends.

So, I'm on vacation. In Southern Florida. Which seems to be inhabited by mostly seniors. I am slightly at a lack of things to do. My grandparents booked this vacation, and decided on a cottage on a little island, in a swamp, inhabited by seniors, far away from anything, including beaches.

It does have wi-fi, though, and an especially nice signal by the pool, so I get to enjoy the warmth as I sit anti-socially with my laptop.

My feet resemble tomatoes right now, due to a trip to the beach yesterday.

I've started reading The Fellowship of the Ring, my forth attempt to read the Lord of the Rings series.

On Sunday, our plane was delayed because their device for figuring out weight distribution wasn't working, so the flight attendant figured the best way to get people to cooperate was to give people free liquor. At 8am.

And nothing particularly interesting has happened since I've got here. And I'm good with that.
Love,
-J-